Trading one Scarf for another

Well, you may have heard, but in case you've been living in a cave for the past week, I got accepted to Trinity! I was offered History and Political Science, thus cancelling my course in UCD, majoring in English and minoring in Art History and Film Studies.

It was like, wow, so amazing, because I had pretty much started in UCD. I mean, I had gone through my orientation there, had the big President's welcome, the introductory 'You'll love UCD' speech - heck, they even gave me a scarf. Then, as I was preparing to pack for my first proper week in college, I checked my CAO application and there it was, just sitting on the page. Unbelievable. This was everything I wanted and more. But, as I sat in shock, that feeling of joy I thought I'd feel, well, it wasn't there. Not entirely, at least. Trinity was literally the only college I wanted to go to my entire life, the only place I could ever see myself studying in. Through the whole Leaving Cert, my light at the end of the tunnel was going to Trinity. When I got my results on August 13th, I couldn't have been more devastated. It was all for nothing and I was offered a course I put down 'just in case', never expecting to have to take it.

And then, three weeks later, I'm offered Trinity and I'm not over the moon. I guess it's because UCD grew on me the week I was there. Sure, it wasn't my first, second or even third choice, but I was there, so were 4000 other Freshers and we were going to you know, embark on this college journey together. Even up there, I prayed to be accepted to Trinity, but had resigned myself to the fact that I wasn't going to get my place. I put my best effort into enjoying UCD, making friends, getting to know the campus and had joined the whole UCD community. I think maybe that's why I wasn't as happy as I maybe should have been when I got my Trinity course.


But, another reason is that, well, is History and PoliSci really what I want to do. Would English not suit me better? Honestly, I still don't know the answer, I mean, I love English and for years, I've dreamed of being a writer of some sort, but can I still attain this now? How differently would the path of my life have gone if I hadn't of accepted Trinity? This will sound melodramatic, but the decision has affected my entire life. Probably different career paths, different colleges and different people. What might have been in UCD, may well not be in Trinity and vice versa. So, for a few days, I weighed the two up in my mind and I made the decision to the best of my ability and I've chosen, for better or for worse.

This was possibly the most important decision I've ever made and I'll have to live with the consequences of my choice. But, what's meant to be, is meant to be and I'm determined to do my best in Trinity and make the most of this opportunity. I'm happy with my choice, I have no regrets and I won't second-guess myself about it from now on.

I don't know if anyone will read this, but if so, firstly thanks and secondly, I hope you won't second-guess any decision you make.

So, I'm hanging up my UCD scarf and donning the Trinity one. I'll make the most of it.

Aw, so cheesy! ;D